Thursday, July 19, 2012

NOW THAT IT'S FINALLY FINISHED. . .




I’ve finished my fourth novel, MURDER IN CYPRUS HOLLOW, and it’s available for purchase. Ah, now for basking in the warm glow of achievement. I puff a sigh of relief, get comfy on my laurels, and then set my sights on the next book.  Right? 
 
Wrong! Not happening, partner. For some reason only the sun, moon and stars know, I can’t. Once again I seem to have fallen into the depths of that pit of doubt: the story isn’t good; the title isn’t ‘catchy’; the opening won’t grab the reader’s attention; people won’t like it. . . I should’ve, could’ve, would’ve. Blah, blah, blah! Yada, yada, yada.

What do I do now? I take a few moments to regroup. I know the book is finished, and done to the best of my ability. People have read and truly enjoyed the other three novels. So why is it that each novel haunts me?

Part of my regrouping process is reading the posts of other authors.  I’m glad I do because I learned most other authors go through the same emotions. Even painters go through this. It’s like a ritual. So, what should I call this ritual? Writer’s remorse? That overwhelming sensation of doubt after finishing a project we desired and slaved over for a long period of time. That’s what it feels like. 

Years ago, when I first started writing novels, I thought when I finished one I’d say, “Good. You’re done. Now, on to the next one.” That hasn’t happened yet. Well, I also learned by reading other author’s blogs that the ‘I can’t let it go’ feeling also is perfectly normal. It’s like withdrawal.

So, I go through the withdrawal and eventually move on. Obviously! If I didn’t, I wouldn’t have four novels written and waiting to be purchased. I just don’t like feeling crippled when I should feel ecstatic. Quit complaining, right?

The solution to this writer’s dilemma? Deal with it! I have too much work to do to wallow in my anxiety. Now, on to book five.

What about you? Have you experienced writer’s remorse? If so, please share your experience and what you do to get yourself back to work.

6 comments:

  1. I wanted to buy the book, but there isn't a link. Could you please help? I clicked on the link http://www.mjmacie-novelist.com but only the first 3 are on there for purchase. I will be back to check in later. Thanks for another book! I can't wait to read!

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  2. Anonymous,
    I'm so glad you are enjoying the books. I just received the link this morning. It's: www.createspace/3942379.
    Murder InCyprus Hollow is the 1st in the Hattie Blitch mystery series and so I would appreciate any feedback.

    Again, thank you so much for contacting me & letting me know you've read all 3 books. I look forward to hearing from you.
    Sincerely,
    M.J. Macie

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  3. ah yes, I think it's built into all those who are even slightly creative, to doubt our work. I like your solution: deal with it.

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  4. Lynda,
    Thanks for the response. I wish there was an easier, magical solution, but unfortunately there isn't. So, we must press on and continue to 'deal with it'.

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  5. Yes! I think this is a perfectly natural response, and I've felt the same way. Just move on to the next project, and let others enjoy what you have produced. :)

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  6. Carol,
    I have done just that. The second in the Hattie Blitch (yes, I kept the name. I really like it) mystery series is underway. What delightful troubles will she find herself involved it this time?

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